Dear gorgeous boy, oh how the years are flying. I can’t help but look at you in amazement, you really are getting big lately. Each day I feel so proud of you, I look at you and my mummy heart is filled with so much joy. You are taking so many big steps towards your independence, making your own decisions yet always looking for a little reassurance and pushing on so much with your learning and desire to be better at everything you do. Just a few months ago you turned five years old, back then I remember thinking how much you had changed but if truth be told you still felt like my baby.
Looking back on just a few short months since then and only now do I actually see how much you have grown. As I look at you now I want to make sure I am a mother who spends less time worrying about what will be and more time in the here and now. There are days when I feel like I am not enough, or that I don’t have enough time for you, and moments of weakness when I struggle to support you with your reading and writing. This is why I am making this promise to you, to enjoy life lately, although I can’t promise that I won’t be pointing a camera in your face, forever capturing moments of our life together as a family. I can promise you that whilst I will be pointing a camera at you, I will remember to put it away sometimes and focus on you.
I love to watch how you interact with your friends and our family. How you assess someone new before welcoming them in to your little bubble, how like me you stand back and observe before truly immersing yourself. I love that you remain headstrong and continue to have a certain way with words which often have me wondering how old you are inside. You are such a happy soul, you are beautiful, you are my saviour, you are bold, brave and so like your Daddy. I adore that everything you do at the moment is a piece of mooncake and nothing phases you. I admire that when something does worry you, or knocks you off balance that you talk to me about it. That we sit down together and talk it through. I hope that you continue to do this.
I felt so overwhelmed as you turned five years old, and this has somewhat heightened recently. For some reason, maybe it is my protective instinct but I fear the unknown for you, what lies ahead, the transition from infants to junior school, each time you move on a level in the many sporting activities you take part in and how you will cope with the change. This is what I need to grab a hold of, I need to stop worrying. You are brave, I know that I need not worry. I need to hide these feelings from and you and enjoy the here and now. I need to worry less and enjoy our adventures without hesitation.
There is a bond I feel for you that only gets stronger the more our little family life entwines. As we approach the most wonderful time of the year I am excited to see what the next few weeks and months look like. May our time together be full of love, laughter and a huge amount of adventure. May our time be extra special because you are a part of it.
Thank you George Archie, thank you for being you, for showing us what love truly is. For being kind and generous, for never giving up even when life or phonics gets a little tricky. For walking around our favourite local gardens every spare moment we have and never moaning all because you know how much mummy loves the pretty colours and change in seasons. I love you so much kid, please stay as you are for just a little while longer.
Always, Mummy x x